Failure

I have been helping my parents in their corn mill just outside Siantar city, 20mins journey from the city, since i graduated last year. Having been working for more than 7 months, i feel what i have gained is far more lesser than what i have lost. Working here has never been a pleasure for me not because this city got no entertainment but because of the way i was treated. Being the smallest in the family, i felt a lot of pressure. I am not listened to when i speak, i am not regarded as 'one independent voice' if i may said so. My hard work was not recognized yet my mistakes will always be spoken of in the family.

One thing i have predicted is that in around 2 more years, maybe less, there's gonna be a very big war between 'corn lord' around siantar city. The intensity has been increasing now and i have tried several times to warn my parents but it always fell on deaf ears. With our current system, machinery, it is obviously impossible to withstand such grand war.

There are also so many error in the mill that needs to be corrected. I have done several calculation myself and i need at least 5 years to build a strong company that's if i was given full authority and power on everything including finance.

Everyday i mourn about this company
about this family
Several times i think of just leaving
and betting my luck in this vast world
but when it come down to my parents
i decided to stay a lil longer
trying to convince what i think was inconvincable
trying to amend what i think was unamandable
but it's just because of parents
i stay.... a lil longer....
probably when the sun suddenly shines
and window of opportunity opened
i will packed my back and go for it
so that when the time comes for the big war
i can returned home with a legiun of strong army


I don't think i am the best but i believe i can do better than them.
I am not able to show them what i've got since i was given no power with lil responsibilty and lil trust.

"A DATA PROCESSED BY A FAILED SYSTEM WILL NEVER BECOME A GOOD DATA"
- JUSTLIMZ, Feb 2011